This week was a rough week. I found out that I would not be getting the job that I was offered back in March. Even though I was offered the job, they later determined I was "ineligible" for the position. Then the guy that I have been dating decided out of nowhere to blow me off and not really talk to me or want to see me. In the past I would have dealt with the feeling of being rejected by covering up my feelings with food and not allowing myself to really feel anything. I would go into a food coma.
This week I felt the feelings. I allowed myself to get mad, vent to my friends, and be sad and cry if I needed to. I did not turn to food to make everything better. I knew I had the tools within me to move past the feelings and recognize that this is just a part of life. We have good days and bad days. I had to keep doing what was best for me to get to my ultimate goal of becoming healthy and losing weight. So I got up every day and exercised even though I wanted to stay in bed and not deal with the world. I logged my food all week even though Ben and Jerry's was calling me name. (You know the two men that you can always count on being there).
I am recognizing that I am becoming the person that I have always wanted to be. More confident, strong, and true to myself. I think being true to yourself is the key to success.
